day to day

diary of a ruined teenager

2009-01-23T22:01:00.001-08:00

Day entry: Friday january the 23rd 12:08pm

Im tired and lonely and sad. I miss Drew he didnt text me all yesterday, i thought he had given up on me and was ignoring me but now he has txted me just then i love him so much!!! were going to the beach for australia day, or on sunday! i just wanna see him!Ima tad annoyed i mean natarsha and aaron are sleeping together, and i know i shouldnt be jelous because he is not with me bbut i still wanna hang out with him heaps and he is hangng out with nat but i would rather want him to be with nat then any other girl so yeh i guess i cant complain and yeh i miss drew!!

the pther day anbd my life has chagned

2009-01-23T21:59:00.000-08:00

Diaries of the new life in adelaide!!!

entry:Monday 8:50pm january 19th 2009

Well its almost a week sincve we moved form da ghost town murray bridge, and as i predicted it mostly sucks mum moved here for a change but it wasnt pour fun ritre dat needs changing or a move, is still is da same, I have friends here 2 aaron and nat wait make dat 3 cus yeh renee is awesome,
so 3 friends from 300 yeh noit much diff there! not!! thwe only thing i love bout being here is dat i have those 3 friends i still have a boyfriend we will talk bout him later he destreves a whole chapter of how awesome he is! and the conviencie of everything and how cheap everything iws is gr8 and today out of my utter most shock i saw my fav customor form murray bridge the coke man! he stil;l has da beautiful smile, anywho tm im listening to my favourite song o'child by nevertheless its gonna be my wedding song! Mum is being a bitch sorry but sh eis i need to get out of the hopuse but wenever i do, she never does let me, and never understands dat i dont say i needd to cus i feel like it i actually do, i miss my mates so much it makes me resltess at night, and makes me sad mbut i guess wer cant have wat we want ok time to cheer up this diarie, ok lets talk bout drew he is awesome and i love oh yeh lol my bf's name is drew he is 24 yeh i know im 16 abit of an age difference but i love him and he loves me, he always loves me and always tells me he does,da sex is gr8 gr8 gr8 i cant emphasize enough how gr8 it is!He loves me for me, I always find it hard to think he loves me for me cus im so use to being used, But drew's not like dat he loves me for me, lol i keep saying dat its true tho and yeh he is a meter reader for etsa(he can read my meter anytime) today he had a massive fight with his x jackie i would right more about her but im not gonna give her da satisfaction and shes not worht it i do however feel sorry for her cus she gave up such a awesume guy seriously how could she he is faboulas!! he is alwalys looking out wqats best and making sure i saty healthy and dat im doing right things in my life i couldnt have got it any better then him, i think he is da one as corny as dat sounds its true, every minute i miss him and every day i got to sleep thinkming bout him i love him so much i would be heart broken and atm im not sure if i can do that again but axel didnt love me he loved da sex but thats just a guy for u! i loved him dont get me wrong but he was not worth ruining most of my life which he did! i once got told dat each relationship you have efeccts da ones after i never thought it was true i always thought it was by choice u could choose for not to effecyt the other well you can try but it will still greatly effect the others i was saved by drew he made me smile again he brought light and hope back into my life nad he is god sent and i say dat with no exagderation he really is God sent he believs in God and he is always encourging me to go to church he cares for me so much, i was so worried bout him yesterday when he was having as fight with his x he so should of let me talk to her i would of torn bits off her,

My fucked up life getting better

2008-09-29T06:27:00.000-07:00

My life is getting better but whenever i get on my feet again i get kicked back down and get like heaps depressed and shit like i thought i was going ok i had a boyfriend whom i thought loved me then he randomly dumped me and he dont miss me at all and it turns out he only dated me for sex so he could get wit me, once he got dat he ditched me he's sucha loser i was so hurt by it i just wanted to go home and cry and i kinda did i didnt get out of the house till 6 days later apart from work and skool but i didnt want to eat,sleep or hang out or even talk to anyone and i mean anyone i dont know why but now i know dat no guy is worth getting dat upset about its useless and doesnt help neither does alchol or drugs it makes it worse cus u get hell misreable but i will survive sadly, i have been listening to my friends supporting me! and ive started to move on im hanging out wth them and i try not to think about him and i always think now dat its a gd thing he dumped you and dat im better and i have more guts and that i deserve sumone dat treats me right and just self motivating myself and my friends have been so supportive saying dat my x is a jerk and dat im so better off now i still get upset when i think bout wat happened considering he dumped me by text the text keeps going over ova in my head it plays and plays i think wat could i do differently, but ive got to learn to control those thoughts but so many things make me think of him like everything its so hard,

life sux

2008-08-03T00:31:00.000-07:00

life sux atm i cnat figure out wat to do ive always had people tell me now im all by my lonesome im scared of making to many mistakes

love is stronger than we think

2008-02-19T23:40:00.001-08:00

if uR IN LUV READ DIZ!!" DONT STOP READING THIS OR SOMETHING BAD WILL HAPPEN TO U... boy- i missed u at school 2day, y weren't u there?
girl- yeah, i had to go to the doctor.
boy- oh realy? y?
girl- oh nothin, annual shots, thats all.
boy- oh
girl- so wht did we do in math 2day?
boy- u didnt miss ne thing that great.......just lots of notes
girl- ok good
boy- yeah
girl- hey i have a question......
boy- ok, ask away
girl-........how much do u love me?
boy- u kno i love u more than anything
girl- yeah.....
boy- y did u ask?
girl-................>silence<..........
boy- is something wrong?
girl- no nothing at all
boy- good.
girl- ..............how much do u care about me?
boy- i would give u the world in a heartbeat if i could.
girl- u would?
boy- yeah.........of course i would >sounding worried< is there something wrong??
girl- no, everythings fine......
boy- are u sure?
girl- yeah.
boy- ok.......i hope so.
girl- ..............would u die for me?
boy- i would take a bullet for u anyday, hun
girl- realy?
boy- anyday. now seriously, is there something wrong???
girl- no im fine, ur fine, we're fine, everyones fine.
boy- ............ok
girl-......................well i have to go ill c u 2morrow at school.
boy- alright, bye. I LOVE YOU.
girl- yeah, i love u 2, bye.
THE NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL:
boy- hey, have u seen my g/f 2day?
friend- no
boy- oh.
friend- she wasnt here yesterday either.
boy- i know, she was acting all wierd on the phone last nite.
friend- well dude u kno how gurls are sumtimes
boy- yeah........but not her.
friend- idk wht else 2 say, man.
boy- k well i gotta get 2 english, ill c ya after school.
friend- yeah i gotta get to science, ttyl.
THAT NIGHT:
-ring-
-ring-
-ring-
-ring-
girl- hello?
boy- hey
girl- oh, hi.
boy- y weren't u at school 2day?
girl- uh.......i had another doctor appointment.
boy- are u sick?
girl- ..................um i have 2 go, my mom's callin on my other line.
boy- ill wait.
girl- it may take a while, ill call u later.
boy-........alright, i love u hun.
very long pause<
girl- (with tear in her eye) look, i think we should break up.
boy- what???
girl- its the best thing for us right now.
boy- y????
girl- i love u.
click<
THE GIRL DOESNT COME TO SCHOOL FOR 3 MORE WEEKS, AND DOESNT ANSWER HER PHONE.
boy- hey dude
friend- hey
boy- whats up
friend- nothin, hey have u talked 2 ur ex lately?
boy- no
friend- so u didnt hear?
boy- hear what?
friend- um idk if i should be the one to tell u......
boy- dude, wtf tell me
friend- uh....call this number....433-555-3468
boy- ok............
BOY CALLS NUMBER AFTER SCHOOL
-ring-
-ring-
-ring-
voice- hello, suppam county hospital, this is nurse beckam.
boy- uh.......i must have the wrong number, im looking for my friend.
voice- what is her name, sir?
(boy gives info) voice- yes, this is the right number, she is one of our patients here.
boy- rele? y? what happened??? how is she???
voice- her room number is ..646, in building A, suite 3.
boy- WHT HAPPENED??!!!!
voice- plz come by sir and you can see her, goodbye.
boy- WAIT! NO!
*dial tone*
BOY GOES TO HOSPITAL, AND TO ROOM ..646, BUILDING A, SUITE 3. GIRL IS LYING IN THE HOSPITAL BED.
boy- omg are u ok??
girl- .................
. boy- sweetie!! talk to me!!
girl- i..........
boy- u what?? U WHAT???
girl- i have cancer and im on life support
boy- .....................>breaks into tears<......................
girl- they're taking me off 2night
boy- y??
girl- i wanted 2 tell u but i couldnt
boy- y didnt u tell me????
girl- i didnt want 2 hurt u.
boy- u could never hurt me
girl- i just wanted 2 c if u felt bout me as the same i felt bout u.
boy- ?
girl- i love u more than anything, i would give u the world in a heartbeat. i would die for you and take a bullet for you.
boy- ...........
girl- dont be sad, i love u n ill always be here w/u
boy- then y'd u break up w/me?
nurse- young man, visiting hours are over.
BOY LEAVES, GIRL IS TAKEN OFF LIFE SUPPORT, AND DIES.
but wht the boy didn't kno is that the girl only asked him those questions so she could hear him say it one last time, and she only broke up w/him because she knew she only had 3 more weeks to live, and thought it would cause him less pain and give him time to get over her before she died.
NEXT DAY
the boy is found dead with a gun in his hand..with a note in the other... THE NOTE SAID:i told her i would take a bullet for her....just like she said she would die for me...

the best song by family force 5

2008-02-19T23:29:00.001-08:00

re: he likes me

2008-02-19T23:06:00.000-08:00

im use to guys liking me im a natrual flirt al the guys at work think im adorable , i mean i have lots of charm and im a natrual flirt

family force 5

2008-02-19T23:03:00.000-08:00

they are the best since kids in the way there cool too but i love family force 5 there album arrived today yay ya

he likes me

2008-02-19T23:00:00.000-08:00

one of the guys at my work i met last week he just started but he is really good friends wit one of my friends so i talk to him a bit heaps i hardly never saw him b4 now i see him evberyday he is like 17 and he is really cool he has two big stretches in his ears they will efect him when he is older but atm they look ok and apparently from sources he has a thing for me go figure! guys are on hormones in mb atm it is funny as!

eventful babysitting

2008-02-19T22:50:00.000-08:00

well last night i was babysittting and it was fine until my mum came to pick me up wit my bro they came in quickly nd locked the door,i asked them wat was wrong and they said that when they pulled up in the driveway a man came up wit a piece of wood in one hand and a semi auto rifle in the other and he looked in the car relised it was the wrong car and walked away, we called the police when they got in but it was still scary the police took the description and said they would ring bk in a mi n my message tone is the same as my ring tone so when the police rang i thought it was a message so i hung up on them cus i didnt look and thought it was a message and i said to myself ill read it in a min i then checked my phone and relised that there was no message and relised it must of been the police and then they rang back so it was ok and then the mum of the boy i was babysitting came bk and we explained wat happened when we left we looking out for him and then all of a sudden we heard a voice say sorry mistaken identy sorry bout before you guys have nothing to worry bout, and i was thinking i feel sorry who it was ment it for then we drove on and we got the numberplate quickly off of the car he was in then as we got up we saw the undercover police car and a normal police car so we went over and updsated them on the sitch i felt very important it was kinda fun part from the thought if he was after us, and that was my eventful night

work

2008-02-18T00:36:00.000-08:00

i work wit two of the biggest bogans in the world byron and tyler they are pretty good looking but they are the biggest bogans they are cool as really but if they find out i actually think there cool im done for

movies

2008-02-16T02:12:00.000-08:00

This is step up 2 the best dance movie ever i advise u watching it!

music

2008-02-16T02:11:00.000-08:00

listen to the luv addict remix on this page it is gr8 and very addictive

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=3575866

new

2008-02-16T02:10:00.000-08:00

for any of you guys who have suscribed to my blog i feel sorry for you

and its a tad bit sad

today/the weekend and stuff

2008-02-15T19:53:00.000-08:00

today i saturday work was so busy yesterday because it was drought relief day all the money we got yesterday went to drought relief so it was hectic i worked today 8-1 it was busier then yesterday it was so full on but im out and alive im going to my friends 17th bday tonight it should be funb i member when she was 14 it seemed like yesterdaY now she is growing up fast,

thursday was valentine's day i got an email and a txt and thats all but i dont care i dont care all i gave was a txt and email too so yeh,

But 40,000 people jump off the brooklyn bridge of broken hearts, that is so sad

trying to update

2008-02-13T02:13:00.000-08:00

hi its me again i should keep my page updated but keep forgetting i have it well

ill start wit the start of the year i have a job now at woolworths i got it last yr in september and i love it at the moment apart from minor issues i went to a computer conf linux it was pretty rad but the downer is i had to leave i met PRETTY cool friends names are quyhnchi,daniel,anna.,tristen,flame,and of course stewart the president of linux austrailia i love knowing people in high places, and of course the good looking aaron siego who me and quinchi scared the crap out of it was funny as and donna my fearfull leader anythony baxter the python guy simon the inkscape guy joel the fire fretz guy, john the old president and many more it was a good week, i use gnome for those who are wanting know, i like using linux heaps i do dual boot for my windows cus i cant run sims 2 on linux im currentlty working on a dance simulating program in open source it should be a hit.,

okay new in my life is not heaps u know apart from more matruity in my head as mell as a bit more info in the brains i love dancing still ive been doing some really gr8 but painfull exercises to strenghten my muscle ive been trying to work on my moves and keeping a bit tighter like locking in my arms and legs and not to be so lazy cus i find that it looks a bit better to me and it will not hurt me as much in long term and im less likely to get hurt

thats all for now read it enjoy it comment bk

24/8/07 weekend

2007-08-23T21:49:00.000-07:00

this weekend im going to grandma's craft camp it might be fun might not dont really know but ill have an open mind i wouldve been doing babysitting on sat which i absouletly love and is the best job in the world but now i cant because you know im going to a craft camp but oh well, its right near the beach so that will be the fun part

my birthday

2007-08-23T21:46:00.000-07:00

My bday is coming up ill be 15 my 2 good friends are sleepin ove and another gr8 friend is just cumin 4 tea so it should be fun everyone thinks its wierd that one of my friends joel is sleeping over he'll be sleeping in my bro's room there good friends i dont c wat the big deal is anywho ill be 15 im a bit excited a bit not more responsbility and more privelages so u know it has its up and downs,
peace out
luv jykl13

last weekend

2007-08-23T21:43:00.000-07:00

last weekend was the youth birthday it was heaps fun we turned 2 i was in the play which turned out really well we even got our photo in the paper how cool is that! and we had a bonfire and i had a good catchup wit some friends of mine it was a gr8 night

Reggie Dabbs Playing the Sax

2007-06-20T22:24:00.001-07:00

this is beautiful

Reggie Dabbs

2007-06-20T22:20:00.001-07:00

he was in adelaide he was gr8

hey

2007-06-19T04:14:00.002-07:00

hey how is everyone im good
last night i sleepd at my best budies friend lozs it was heaps fun we watched a movie then talked for a hour in bed then we did schoolwork and had lunch and then we played on youtube

Crazy - Simple Plan

2007-06-19T04:14:00.001-07:00

this is todays society

my weekend

2007-06-16T23:59:00.000-07:00

hey everyone another blog entry
my fav band at da moment is simple plan
i like them cus they sing songs that i know i can relate to and dat other kids can
anywho on friday i went to youth and then i cum and watched tv then went 2 bed
on saturday did some jobs then i went out with my friend renee we saw my other 2 friends ruban and kieren and then we went to coles then maccas then we walked back home the we watched videos on youtube then we talked in my bedroom then i
walked her home she lives up da road from me it was fun then i came home and had tea and watched more simple plan then i went 2 bed on sundcay i went to church then i came home and watched more simple plan ilove them bye

society

2007-06-11T17:29:00.000-07:00

is everyone going crazy

shout out

2007-06-08T19:06:00.001-07:00

im just giving my mum a shout out hey kira0030 love ya

2007-06-07T18:21:00.000-07:00

these are some of my fav bands

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TiReQ2PUmHE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uF_YTSP6cvw
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YLqT9nXlDjE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bVFiLBkFONI
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p-3gmRslIks

friday

2007-06-07T18:18:00.000-07:00

hey everyone again
to day is friday its a long weekend this week so cool today im doing school work
then ill go to colossal curs to work then mcues backery ill pack the pies and buns in bags and put them in the freezer then ill get ready for day slumber party tonight at youth us girls will be at da church and da guys will b at darryl's its gonna be heaps fun
any who got to go peace out by jykl13

september

2007-06-07T02:41:00.000-07:00

on september the 7th and 8th youth alive are having an exo day its gonna be gr8
and guess who is coming switchfoot and pillar how cool is that
i cant wait my bday is 5 days be4 it starts so i will have money for merch any who gotta go bye love ya

my first blog

2007-06-07T02:36:00.000-07:00

this is my first blog
so ill introduce my self my name is jess and im a student i do homeschool
i like homeschool its good fun im also an evangilical christian
i have 1 dog 1 cat and 1 chook my fav band is stellar kart, thousand foot krutch, pillar, p.o.d, jeremy camp, barlow girl, switch foot adn the fray etc.
my best friends are howie, rach's,loz and sam