My fucked up life getting better

My life is getting better but whenever i get on my feet again i get kicked back down and get like heaps depressed and shit like i thought i was going ok i had a boyfriend whom i thought loved me then he randomly dumped me and he dont miss me at all and it turns out he only dated me for sex so he could get wit me, once he got dat he ditched me he's sucha loser i was so hurt by it i just wanted to go home and cry and i kinda did i didnt get out of the house till 6 days later apart from work and skool but i didnt want to eat,sleep or hang out or even talk to anyone and i mean anyone i dont know why but now i know dat no guy is worth getting dat upset about its useless and doesnt help neither does alchol or drugs it makes it worse cus u get hell misreable but i will survive sadly, i have been listening to my friends supporting me! and ive started to move on im hanging out wth them and i try not to think about him and i always think now dat its a gd thing he dumped you and dat im better and i have more guts and that i deserve sumone dat treats me right and just self motivating myself and my friends have been so supportive saying dat my x is a jerk and dat im so better off now i still get upset when i think bout wat happened considering he dumped me by text the text keeps going over ova in my head it plays and plays i think wat could i do differently, but ive got to learn to control those thoughts but so many things make me think of him like everything its so hard,

life sux

life sux atm i cnat figure out wat to do ive always had people tell me now im all by my lonesome im scared of making to many mistakes

love is stronger than we think

if uR IN LUV READ DIZ!!" DONT STOP READING THIS OR SOMETHING BAD WILL HAPPEN TO U... boy- i missed u at school 2day, y weren't u there?
girl- yeah, i had to go to the doctor.
boy- oh realy? y?
girl- oh nothin, annual shots, thats all.
boy- oh
girl- so wht did we do in math 2day?
boy- u didnt miss ne thing that great.......just lots of notes
girl- ok good
boy- yeah
girl- hey i have a question......
boy- ok, ask away
girl-........how much do u love me?
boy- u kno i love u more than anything
girl- yeah.....
boy- y did u ask?
girl-................>silence<..........
boy- is something wrong?
girl- no nothing at all
boy- good.
girl- ..............how much do u care about me?
boy- i would give u the world in a heartbeat if i could.
girl- u would?
boy- yeah.........of course i would >sounding worried< is there something wrong??
girl- no, everythings fine......
boy- are u sure?
girl- yeah.
boy- ok.......i hope so.
girl- ..............would u die for me?
boy- i would take a bullet for u anyday, hun
girl- realy?
boy- anyday. now seriously, is there something wrong???
girl- no im fine, ur fine, we're fine, everyones fine.
boy- ............ok
girl-......................well i have to go ill c u 2morrow at school.
boy- alright, bye. I LOVE YOU.
girl- yeah, i love u 2, bye.
THE NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL:
boy- hey, have u seen my g/f 2day?
friend- no
boy- oh.
friend- she wasnt here yesterday either.
boy- i know, she was acting all wierd on the phone last nite.
friend- well dude u kno how gurls are sumtimes
boy- yeah........but not her.
friend- idk wht else 2 say, man.
boy- k well i gotta get 2 english, ill c ya after school.
friend- yeah i gotta get to science, ttyl.
THAT NIGHT:
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girl- hello?
boy- hey
girl- oh, hi.
boy- y weren't u at school 2day?
girl- uh.......i had another doctor appointment.
boy- are u sick?
girl- ..................um i have 2 go, my mom's callin on my other line.
boy- ill wait.
girl- it may take a while, ill call u later.
boy-........alright, i love u hun.
very long pause<
girl- (with tear in her eye) look, i think we should break up.
boy- what???
girl- its the best thing for us right now.
boy- y????
girl- i love u.
click<
THE GIRL DOESNT COME TO SCHOOL FOR 3 MORE WEEKS, AND DOESNT ANSWER HER PHONE.
boy- hey dude
friend- hey
boy- whats up
friend- nothin, hey have u talked 2 ur ex lately?
boy- no
friend- so u didnt hear?
boy- hear what?
friend- um idk if i should be the one to tell u......
boy- dude, wtf tell me
friend- uh....call this number....433-555-3468
boy- ok............
BOY CALLS NUMBER AFTER SCHOOL
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voice- hello, suppam county hospital, this is nurse beckam.
boy- uh.......i must have the wrong number, im looking for my friend.
voice- what is her name, sir?
(boy gives info) voice- yes, this is the right number, she is one of our patients here.
boy- rele? y? what happened??? how is she???
voice- her room number is ..646, in building A, suite 3.
boy- WHT HAPPENED??!!!!
voice- plz come by sir and you can see her, goodbye.
boy- WAIT! NO!
*dial tone*
BOY GOES TO HOSPITAL, AND TO ROOM ..646, BUILDING A, SUITE 3. GIRL IS LYING IN THE HOSPITAL BED.
boy- omg are u ok??
girl- .................
. boy- sweetie!! talk to me!!
girl- i..........
boy- u what?? U WHAT???
girl- i have cancer and im on life support
boy- .....................>breaks into tears<......................
girl- they're taking me off 2night
boy- y??
girl- i wanted 2 tell u but i couldnt
boy- y didnt u tell me????
girl- i didnt want 2 hurt u.
boy- u could never hurt me
girl- i just wanted 2 c if u felt bout me as the same i felt bout u.
boy- ?
girl- i love u more than anything, i would give u the world in a heartbeat. i would die for you and take a bullet for you.
boy- ...........
girl- dont be sad, i love u n ill always be here w/u
boy- then y'd u break up w/me?
nurse- young man, visiting hours are over.
BOY LEAVES, GIRL IS TAKEN OFF LIFE SUPPORT, AND DIES.
but wht the boy didn't kno is that the girl only asked him those questions so she could hear him say it one last time, and she only broke up w/him because she knew she only had 3 more weeks to live, and thought it would cause him less pain and give him time to get over her before she died.
NEXT DAY
the boy is found dead with a gun in his hand..with a note in the other... THE NOTE SAID:i told her i would take a bullet for her....just like she said she would die for me...

the best song by family force 5

re: he likes me

im use to guys liking me im a natrual flirt al the guys at work think im adorable , i mean i have lots of charm and im a natrual flirt

family force 5

they are the best since kids in the way there cool too but i love family force 5 there album arrived today yay ya

he likes me

one of the guys at my work i met last week he just started but he is really good friends wit one of my friends so i talk to him a bit heaps i hardly never saw him b4 now i see him evberyday he is like 17 and he is really cool he has two big stretches in his ears they will efect him when he is older but atm they look ok and apparently from sources he has a thing for me go figure! guys are on hormones in mb atm it is funny as!

eventful babysitting

well last night i was babysittting and it was fine until my mum came to pick me up wit my bro they came in quickly nd locked the door,i asked them wat was wrong and they said that when they pulled up in the driveway a man came up wit a piece of wood in one hand and a semi auto rifle in the other and he looked in the car relised it was the wrong car and walked away, we called the police when they got in but it was still scary the police took the description and said they would ring bk in a mi n my message tone is the same as my ring tone so when the police rang i thought it was a message so i hung up on them cus i didnt look and thought it was a message and i said to myself ill read it in a min i then checked my phone and relised that there was no message and relised it must of been the police and then they rang back so it was ok and then the mum of the boy i was babysitting came bk and we explained wat happened when we left we looking out for him and then all of a sudden we heard a voice say sorry mistaken identy sorry bout before you guys have nothing to worry bout, and i was thinking i feel sorry who it was ment it for then we drove on and we got the numberplate quickly off of the car he was in then as we got up we saw the undercover police car and a normal police car so we went over and updsated them on the sitch i felt very important it was kinda fun part from the thought if he was after us, and that was my eventful night

work

i work wit two of the biggest bogans in the world byron and tyler they are pretty good looking but they are the biggest bogans they are cool as really but if they find out i actually think there cool im done for

movies

This is step up 2 the best dance movie ever i advise u watching it!

music

listen to the luv addict remix on this page it is gr8 and very addictive

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new

for any of you guys who have suscribed to my blog i feel sorry for you

and its a tad bit sad

today/the weekend and stuff

today i saturday work was so busy yesterday because it was drought relief day all the money we got yesterday went to drought relief so it was hectic i worked today 8-1 it was busier then yesterday it was so full on but im out and alive im going to my friends 17th bday tonight it should be funb i member when she was 14 it seemed like yesterdaY now she is growing up fast,

thursday was valentine's day i got an email and a txt and thats all but i dont care i dont care all i gave was a txt and email too so yeh,

But 40,000 people jump off the brooklyn bridge of broken hearts, that is so sad

trying to update

hi its me again i should keep my page updated but keep forgetting i have it well

ill start wit the start of the year i have a job now at woolworths i got it last yr in september and i love it at the moment apart from minor issues i went to a computer conf linux it was pretty rad but the downer is i had to leave i met PRETTY cool friends names are quyhnchi,daniel,anna.,tristen,flame,and of course stewart the president of linux austrailia i love knowing people in high places, and of course the good looking aaron siego who me and quinchi scared the crap out of it was funny as and donna my fearfull leader anythony baxter the python guy simon the inkscape guy joel the fire fretz guy, john the old president and many more it was a good week, i use gnome for those who are wanting know, i like using linux heaps i do dual boot for my windows cus i cant run sims 2 on linux im currentlty working on a dance simulating program in open source it should be a hit.,


okay new in my life is not heaps u know apart from more matruity in my head as mell as a bit more info in the brains i love dancing still ive been doing some really gr8 but painfull exercises to strenghten my muscle ive been trying to work on my moves and keeping a bit tighter like locking in my arms and legs and not to be so lazy cus i find that it looks a bit better to me and it will not hurt me as much in long term and im less likely to get hurt

thats all for now read it enjoy it comment bk