Day entry: Friday january the 23rd 12:08pm
Im tired and lonely and sad. I miss Drew he didnt text me all yesterday, i thought he had given up on me and was ignoring me but now he has txted me just then i love him so much!!! were going to the beach for australia day, or on sunday! i just wanna see him!Ima tad annoyed i mean natarsha and aaron are sleeping together, and i know i shouldnt be jelous because he is not with me bbut i still wanna hang out with him heaps and he is hangng out with nat but i would rather want him to be with nat then any other girl so yeh i guess i cant complain and yeh i miss drew!!
Friday, January 23, 2009
the pther day anbd my life has chagned
Diaries of the new life in adelaide!!!
entry:Monday 8:50pm january 19th 2009
Well its almost a week sincve we moved form da ghost town murray bridge, and as i predicted it mostly sucks mum moved here for a change but it wasnt pour fun ritre dat needs changing or a move, is still is da same, I have friends here 2 aaron and nat wait make dat 3 cus yeh renee is awesome,
so 3 friends from 300 yeh noit much diff there! not!! thwe only thing i love bout being here is dat i have those 3 friends i still have a boyfriend we will talk bout him later he destreves a whole chapter of how awesome he is! and the conviencie of everything and how cheap everything iws is gr8 and today out of my utter most shock i saw my fav customor form murray bridge the coke man! he stil;l has da beautiful smile, anywho tm im listening to my favourite song o'child by nevertheless its gonna be my wedding song! Mum is being a bitch sorry but sh eis i need to get out of the hopuse but wenever i do, she never does let me, and never understands dat i dont say i needd to cus i feel like it i actually do, i miss my mates so much it makes me resltess at night, and makes me sad mbut i guess wer cant have wat we want ok time to cheer up this diarie, ok lets talk bout drew he is awesome and i love oh yeh lol my bf's name is drew he is 24 yeh i know im 16 abit of an age difference but i love him and he loves me, he always loves me and always tells me he does,da sex is gr8 gr8 gr8 i cant emphasize enough how gr8 it is!He loves me for me, I always find it hard to think he loves me for me cus im so use to being used, But drew's not like dat he loves me for me, lol i keep saying dat its true tho and yeh he is a meter reader for etsa(he can read my meter anytime) today he had a massive fight with his x jackie i would right more about her but im not gonna give her da satisfaction and shes not worht it i do however feel sorry for her cus she gave up such a awesume guy seriously how could she he is faboulas!! he is alwalys looking out wqats best and making sure i saty healthy and dat im doing right things in my life i couldnt have got it any better then him, i think he is da one as corny as dat sounds its true, every minute i miss him and every day i got to sleep thinkming bout him i love him so much i would be heart broken and atm im not sure if i can do that again but axel didnt love me he loved da sex but thats just a guy for u! i loved him dont get me wrong but he was not worth ruining most of my life which he did! i once got told dat each relationship you have efeccts da ones after i never thought it was true i always thought it was by choice u could choose for not to effecyt the other well you can try but it will still greatly effect the others i was saved by drew he made me smile again he brought light and hope back into my life nad he is god sent and i say dat with no exagderation he really is God sent he believs in God and he is always encourging me to go to church he cares for me so much, i was so worried bout him yesterday when he was having as fight with his x he so should of let me talk to her i would of torn bits off her,
entry:Monday 8:50pm january 19th 2009
Well its almost a week sincve we moved form da ghost town murray bridge, and as i predicted it mostly sucks mum moved here for a change but it wasnt pour fun ritre dat needs changing or a move, is still is da same, I have friends here 2 aaron and nat wait make dat 3 cus yeh renee is awesome,
so 3 friends from 300 yeh noit much diff there! not!! thwe only thing i love bout being here is dat i have those 3 friends i still have a boyfriend we will talk bout him later he destreves a whole chapter of how awesome he is! and the conviencie of everything and how cheap everything iws is gr8 and today out of my utter most shock i saw my fav customor form murray bridge the coke man! he stil;l has da beautiful smile, anywho tm im listening to my favourite song o'child by nevertheless its gonna be my wedding song! Mum is being a bitch sorry but sh eis i need to get out of the hopuse but wenever i do, she never does let me, and never understands dat i dont say i needd to cus i feel like it i actually do, i miss my mates so much it makes me resltess at night, and makes me sad mbut i guess wer cant have wat we want ok time to cheer up this diarie, ok lets talk bout drew he is awesome and i love oh yeh lol my bf's name is drew he is 24 yeh i know im 16 abit of an age difference but i love him and he loves me, he always loves me and always tells me he does,da sex is gr8 gr8 gr8 i cant emphasize enough how gr8 it is!He loves me for me, I always find it hard to think he loves me for me cus im so use to being used, But drew's not like dat he loves me for me, lol i keep saying dat its true tho and yeh he is a meter reader for etsa(he can read my meter anytime) today he had a massive fight with his x jackie i would right more about her but im not gonna give her da satisfaction and shes not worht it i do however feel sorry for her cus she gave up such a awesume guy seriously how could she he is faboulas!! he is alwalys looking out wqats best and making sure i saty healthy and dat im doing right things in my life i couldnt have got it any better then him, i think he is da one as corny as dat sounds its true, every minute i miss him and every day i got to sleep thinkming bout him i love him so much i would be heart broken and atm im not sure if i can do that again but axel didnt love me he loved da sex but thats just a guy for u! i loved him dont get me wrong but he was not worth ruining most of my life which he did! i once got told dat each relationship you have efeccts da ones after i never thought it was true i always thought it was by choice u could choose for not to effecyt the other well you can try but it will still greatly effect the others i was saved by drew he made me smile again he brought light and hope back into my life nad he is god sent and i say dat with no exagderation he really is God sent he believs in God and he is always encourging me to go to church he cares for me so much, i was so worried bout him yesterday when he was having as fight with his x he so should of let me talk to her i would of torn bits off her,
Monday, September 29, 2008
My fucked up life getting better
My life is getting better but whenever i get on my feet again i get kicked back down and get like heaps depressed and shit like i thought i was going ok i had a boyfriend whom i thought loved me then he randomly dumped me and he dont miss me at all and it turns out he only dated me for sex so he could get wit me, once he got dat he ditched me he's sucha loser i was so hurt by it i just wanted to go home and cry and i kinda did i didnt get out of the house till 6 days later apart from work and skool but i didnt want to eat,sleep or hang out or even talk to anyone and i mean anyone i dont know why but now i know dat no guy is worth getting dat upset about its useless and doesnt help neither does alchol or drugs it makes it worse cus u get hell misreable but i will survive sadly, i have been listening to my friends supporting me! and ive started to move on im hanging out wth them and i try not to think about him and i always think now dat its a gd thing he dumped you and dat im better and i have more guts and that i deserve sumone dat treats me right and just self motivating myself and my friends have been so supportive saying dat my x is a jerk and dat im so better off now i still get upset when i think bout wat happened considering he dumped me by text the text keeps going over ova in my head it plays and plays i think wat could i do differently, but ive got to learn to control those thoughts but so many things make me think of him like everything its so hard,
Sunday, August 3, 2008
life sux
life sux atm i cnat figure out wat to do ive always had people tell me now im all by my lonesome im scared of making to many mistakes
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
love is stronger than we think
if uR IN LUV READ DIZ!!" DONT STOP READING THIS OR SOMETHING BAD WILL HAPPEN TO U... boy- i missed u at school 2day, y weren't u there?
girl- yeah, i had to go to the doctor.
boy- oh realy? y?
girl- oh nothin, annual shots, thats all.
boy- oh
girl- so wht did we do in math 2day?
boy- u didnt miss ne thing that great.......just lots of notes
girl- ok good
boy- yeah
girl- hey i have a question......
boy- ok, ask away
girl-........how much do u love me?
boy- u kno i love u more than anything
girl- yeah.....
boy- y did u ask?
girl-................>silence<..........
boy- is something wrong?
girl- no nothing at all
boy- good.
girl- ..............how much do u care about me?
boy- i would give u the world in a heartbeat if i could.
girl- u would?
boy- yeah.........of course i would >sounding worried< is there something wrong??
girl- no, everythings fine......
boy- are u sure?
girl- yeah.
boy- ok.......i hope so.
girl- ..............would u die for me?
boy- i would take a bullet for u anyday, hun
girl- realy?
boy- anyday. now seriously, is there something wrong???
girl- no im fine, ur fine, we're fine, everyones fine.
boy- ............ok
girl-......................well i have to go ill c u 2morrow at school.
boy- alright, bye. I LOVE YOU.
girl- yeah, i love u 2, bye.
THE NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL:
boy- hey, have u seen my g/f 2day?
friend- no
boy- oh.
friend- she wasnt here yesterday either.
boy- i know, she was acting all wierd on the phone last nite.
friend- well dude u kno how gurls are sumtimes
boy- yeah........but not her.
friend- idk wht else 2 say, man.
boy- k well i gotta get 2 english, ill c ya after school.
friend- yeah i gotta get to science, ttyl.
THAT NIGHT:
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girl- hello?
boy- hey
girl- oh, hi.
boy- y weren't u at school 2day?
girl- uh.......i had another doctor appointment.
boy- are u sick?
girl- ..................um i have 2 go, my mom's callin on my other line.
boy- ill wait.
girl- it may take a while, ill call u later.
boy-........alright, i love u hun.
very long pause<
girl- (with tear in her eye) look, i think we should break up.
boy- what???
girl- its the best thing for us right now.
boy- y????
girl- i love u.
click<
THE GIRL DOESNT COME TO SCHOOL FOR 3 MORE WEEKS, AND DOESNT ANSWER HER PHONE.
boy- hey dude
friend- hey
boy- whats up
friend- nothin, hey have u talked 2 ur ex lately?
boy- no
friend- so u didnt hear?
boy- hear what?
friend- um idk if i should be the one to tell u......
boy- dude, wtf tell me
friend- uh....call this number....433-555-3468
boy- ok............
BOY CALLS NUMBER AFTER SCHOOL
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voice- hello, suppam county hospital, this is nurse beckam.
boy- uh.......i must have the wrong number, im looking for my friend.
voice- what is her name, sir?
(boy gives info) voice- yes, this is the right number, she is one of our patients here.
boy- rele? y? what happened??? how is she???
voice- her room number is ..646, in building A, suite 3.
boy- WHT HAPPENED??!!!!
voice- plz come by sir and you can see her, goodbye.
boy- WAIT! NO!
*dial tone*
BOY GOES TO HOSPITAL, AND TO ROOM ..646, BUILDING A, SUITE 3. GIRL IS LYING IN THE HOSPITAL BED.
boy- omg are u ok??
girl- .................
. boy- sweetie!! talk to me!!
girl- i..........
boy- u what?? U WHAT???
girl- i have cancer and im on life support
boy- .....................>breaks into tears<......................
girl- they're taking me off 2night
boy- y??
girl- i wanted 2 tell u but i couldnt
boy- y didnt u tell me????
girl- i didnt want 2 hurt u.
boy- u could never hurt me
girl- i just wanted 2 c if u felt bout me as the same i felt bout u.
boy- ?
girl- i love u more than anything, i would give u the world in a heartbeat. i would die for you and take a bullet for you.
boy- ...........
girl- dont be sad, i love u n ill always be here w/u
boy- then y'd u break up w/me?
nurse- young man, visiting hours are over.
BOY LEAVES, GIRL IS TAKEN OFF LIFE SUPPORT, AND DIES.
but wht the boy didn't kno is that the girl only asked him those questions so she could hear him say it one last time, and she only broke up w/him because she knew she only had 3 more weeks to live, and thought it would cause him less pain and give him time to get over her before she died.
NEXT DAY
the boy is found dead with a gun in his hand..with a note in the other... THE NOTE SAID:i told her i would take a bullet for her....just like she said she would die for me...
girl- yeah, i had to go to the doctor.
boy- oh realy? y?
girl- oh nothin, annual shots, thats all.
boy- oh
girl- so wht did we do in math 2day?
boy- u didnt miss ne thing that great.......just lots of notes
girl- ok good
boy- yeah
girl- hey i have a question......
boy- ok, ask away
girl-........how much do u love me?
boy- u kno i love u more than anything
girl- yeah.....
boy- y did u ask?
girl-................>silence<..........
boy- is something wrong?
girl- no nothing at all
boy- good.
girl- ..............how much do u care about me?
boy- i would give u the world in a heartbeat if i could.
girl- u would?
boy- yeah.........of course i would >sounding worried< is there something wrong??
girl- no, everythings fine......
boy- are u sure?
girl- yeah.
boy- ok.......i hope so.
girl- ..............would u die for me?
boy- i would take a bullet for u anyday, hun
girl- realy?
boy- anyday. now seriously, is there something wrong???
girl- no im fine, ur fine, we're fine, everyones fine.
boy- ............ok
girl-......................well i have to go ill c u 2morrow at school.
boy- alright, bye. I LOVE YOU.
girl- yeah, i love u 2, bye.
THE NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL:
boy- hey, have u seen my g/f 2day?
friend- no
boy- oh.
friend- she wasnt here yesterday either.
boy- i know, she was acting all wierd on the phone last nite.
friend- well dude u kno how gurls are sumtimes
boy- yeah........but not her.
friend- idk wht else 2 say, man.
boy- k well i gotta get 2 english, ill c ya after school.
friend- yeah i gotta get to science, ttyl.
THAT NIGHT:
-ring-
-ring-
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-ring-
girl- hello?
boy- hey
girl- oh, hi.
boy- y weren't u at school 2day?
girl- uh.......i had another doctor appointment.
boy- are u sick?
girl- ..................um i have 2 go, my mom's callin on my other line.
boy- ill wait.
girl- it may take a while, ill call u later.
boy-........alright, i love u hun.
very long pause<
girl- (with tear in her eye) look, i think we should break up.
boy- what???
girl- its the best thing for us right now.
boy- y????
girl- i love u.
click<
THE GIRL DOESNT COME TO SCHOOL FOR 3 MORE WEEKS, AND DOESNT ANSWER HER PHONE.
boy- hey dude
friend- hey
boy- whats up
friend- nothin, hey have u talked 2 ur ex lately?
boy- no
friend- so u didnt hear?
boy- hear what?
friend- um idk if i should be the one to tell u......
boy- dude, wtf tell me
friend- uh....call this number....433-555-3468
boy- ok............
BOY CALLS NUMBER AFTER SCHOOL
-ring-
-ring-
-ring-
voice- hello, suppam county hospital, this is nurse beckam.
boy- uh.......i must have the wrong number, im looking for my friend.
voice- what is her name, sir?
(boy gives info) voice- yes, this is the right number, she is one of our patients here.
boy- rele? y? what happened??? how is she???
voice- her room number is ..646, in building A, suite 3.
boy- WHT HAPPENED??!!!!
voice- plz come by sir and you can see her, goodbye.
boy- WAIT! NO!
*dial tone*
BOY GOES TO HOSPITAL, AND TO ROOM ..646, BUILDING A, SUITE 3. GIRL IS LYING IN THE HOSPITAL BED.
boy- omg are u ok??
girl- .................
. boy- sweetie!! talk to me!!
girl- i..........
boy- u what?? U WHAT???
girl- i have cancer and im on life support
boy- .....................>breaks into tears<......................
girl- they're taking me off 2night
boy- y??
girl- i wanted 2 tell u but i couldnt
boy- y didnt u tell me????
girl- i didnt want 2 hurt u.
boy- u could never hurt me
girl- i just wanted 2 c if u felt bout me as the same i felt bout u.
boy- ?
girl- i love u more than anything, i would give u the world in a heartbeat. i would die for you and take a bullet for you.
boy- ...........
girl- dont be sad, i love u n ill always be here w/u
boy- then y'd u break up w/me?
nurse- young man, visiting hours are over.
BOY LEAVES, GIRL IS TAKEN OFF LIFE SUPPORT, AND DIES.
but wht the boy didn't kno is that the girl only asked him those questions so she could hear him say it one last time, and she only broke up w/him because she knew she only had 3 more weeks to live, and thought it would cause him less pain and give him time to get over her before she died.
NEXT DAY
the boy is found dead with a gun in his hand..with a note in the other... THE NOTE SAID:i told her i would take a bullet for her....just like she said she would die for me...
re: he likes me
im use to guys liking me im a natrual flirt al the guys at work think im adorable , i mean i have lots of charm and im a natrual flirt
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